I got a new Blackberry Tour bitches :] Im also getting a car soon, hopefully haha. Lately Ive been happier but not exactly happy. Choco has a facebk, check it out sometimes! Another person from work mistakened me as Chinese -_- Eh i wouldnt mind being mistakened as Japanese but Chinese is like an insult. Not that I dun like them or anything, but just not me.
Well i just came back from watching 'The Lovely Bones' with Nam, we went as friends. Yet im feeling gloomy, I feel as if hes such a lying son of a bitch. Like i wanna say " I TOLD U SO!" so loud in his face. Ugh, so heres the story, last year i told him to stop flirting with this hoe bag named Kristin (4 eyes freak) anyways, and he claimed it as " being friendly" and then this year apparently she asked him to winterball and sadies, whatever. Im so tired of it, he always asks for me back yet i see no sense of change. I dunt even think i want friendship from this type of person anymore. Its pointless and useless. My other reasons for gloominess are personal matters that only my BFF should know about. Byeeeee
I feel like im losing everything. I lost Nam and maybe even my friendship with Vu. Everything is blowing up in my face. I lost trust and faith in alot of people this month, and its just mid January :O I was lied to, labeled and the last to know. I feel as if ive done all that i could for everyone and i get nothing in return. Nam just wants me miserable. I know friends do try to make things better but ive heard so much crap from ppl like :" i wont hurt you". and then next i see myself crying cause of them. Theres so much things that people dont know, things that deeply hurt me but i rather not say it cause i want everyone to be happy and not worry about me. I am very selfless and i think thats why ppl take advantage of me. "That boy is a monster. He ate my heart. He ate my heart and then he ate my brain" I feel like after some time, ill become bitter hearted. I stopped believing in people. talk is crap. First it was Kevin and now its **. FML people who i truly cared for and trusted ends up hurting me. why should i even bother anymore, give me reasons please...
So yesterday, I went to a wedding. It was alright but in the beginning, it didnt go so well. Ive been pretty busy this weekend. For the past 2 days, Ive been coming home @ 11pm. thats pretty late considering my curfew. Anyways, todays hw and study day. ahh and tmrw im going back to dmv :)
Tonight was one of the scariest nights ive had. I was trying to get out of "his" car but "he" wouldnt let me so i even had to take off my jacket to be able to run into my house for safety. I feel violated. Im so scarred....Maybe it wasnt a good idea to even go.
Ah,im kinda in a pissy mood. Im stressed about college, and school. And not technically "stressed" about the whole drama but its just annoying and immature. Im learning how to cook, yay me! (for once) haha. might invite alex over, he needs to learn too :p I went to ortho today, twas cool. No waiting. I presented in English today, was bad :[
